I was asking myself, why did I end up with this kind of this decision though I know that in the silence of the night when only me and him was awake I was happy and I was at peace, that I don’t have to think about anything else except US .
I stated reasons but were the reasons was really worth it – was this other people worth it, when him was worth it? Was the freedom from all the lie of our world enough to let him go? I’m asking but then again I can’t find the answers. Some say it was too fast, some say it was all just a joke , a fun and a mischief… but then again … it’s not a mischief.
The feeling was too fast, but it’s not the matter of time we were taking, it’s all about the mutual feeling we had in the shadows of all the lies that we have to make, just to make it possible.
He said , he wasn’t worth it! He said he was non-sense !, He said he is a monster! He said he was a dumb bastard! He is the worst person I could possibly have! And that he doesn’t deserve to be loved?
Here’s what I say :
Ø If you’re not worth it – why is my heart and soul drown in tears ?
Ø If you’re non-sense – how was it that you fill up the lost pieces of my heart ?
Ø If you we’re a monster - how come I see all the goodness of you regardless of the facts you said?
Ø If you were a dumb bastard- how come you can appreciate and value life?
Ø If you were the worst person I can have- How come even in the midst of dawn and sunrise , we always wish to be together?
Ø If you don’t deserve to be loved- your telling me now that you are stupid! You being a person is enough to be loved, you don’t see the goodness of your heart but that beast you portray is the knight that is all worth it to be loved.
I’m now counting the days and nights, I feel so far from you. Counting every second and every minute that I miss you , Counting every second, every minute and every hour that past and wished I never said it…
